What am I cooking?
I am making whole wheat spaghetti with meat sauce for dinner. I am trying desperate to use all of our food before we move in two weeks. It might make for some interesting meals!
What are my weekend plans?
We're supposed to go out tonight and try a new beer at one of our favorite downtown bars. Tomorrow night I'm supposed to go to a Mom's Night In at a friend's house and Sunday afternoon Mike and I are going out to lunch while my MIL comes up to spell us for a while. It's all questionable, as everyone has been kind of sickly around here.
What are my prayer intentions for the day?
The kids have been sick, so I am praying for them and also praying in gratitude for their relative good health. I am praying that we get through our move okay. I am always praying for a miracle for Anthony.
What can my children do instead of watching T.V?
Nothing, apparently. Maria has been lying on the couch all morning, sick. Veronica and I went upstairs before and she played with her stuffed animals, she puts them to bed, says "shhhh!". It's cute.
What have I done for my marriage this week?
Just the usual, I guess. I am trying to not be too needy.
What am I reading?
I don't think I've read one thing this week!
What’s challenging me lately?
I am filled with worry about this move, and Anthony, and our life and our future. I wish I could just chill out and trust God. I know I should.
Something that made me think?
Whenever my kids are sick with some small illness or bug, I think of people whose kids are really ill and I wonder how anyone survives it.
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Thoughts for Thursday - Saturday Edition :)
I'm just behind on everything this week.
What am I cooking?
I've cooked exactly nothing today, but I did make an excellent black bean burger this week that I really enjoyed. Here's the recipe: http://brokeassgourmet.com/articles/black-bean-burgers-with-sriracha-aioli
Next time, I'd have more things to dress it up, like avacado, or lettuce and tomato. I also have to serve it with more. I didn't think I'd have time to make them on Thursday and then I did, so we only had chips with it and it wasn't enough. Maybe potatoes and a veg, or pasta salad and salad. But they were great!
What are my weekend plans?
I went out to dinner last night with my sister and a friend and I went to bed around midnight, which of course I regret because A was up at 4:30. 4:30! Tonight Mike and I are going out to dinner, we were supposed to go play cards but it got canceled because our friend who was hosting has a sick kid. I am going to Mass tonight and Mike tomorrow.
What are my prayer intentions for the day?
A friend of mine's ex-husband died very suddenly this week, so I am thinking of her. I have another friend who is having a baby soon, her first and I'm praying for her and her family. I started in a little prayer group this week and I'm praying for the women I met there and their families. As always, my little kids.
What can my children do instead of watching T.V?
We are playing outside, which SURELY must be the last chance. Also I am packing up the downstairs, and they are playing htere.
What have I done for my marriage this week?
We had a rough morning on Wednesday and Mike had plans to go out right after work, and I tried to keep everything going well so that I wouldn't sound desperate when I said "have fun, we're fine!". I wanted to really be fine and it worked.
What am I reading?
I'm still reading Half a Life and I'm doing some reading for this prayer group I'm in.
What’s challenging me lately?
I'm so tired. It's hard to not get depressed when you are so tired and people are so unhappy around you.
Something that made me think?
Hmmm. Because we were talking about God and marriage this week, I thought about my marriage a lot. I also think, often, what would I do without God? What would I do if I didn't have faith in something? I would like to be more appreciative of my life and my faith and stop acting like I don't believe what I believe.
What am I cooking?
I've cooked exactly nothing today, but I did make an excellent black bean burger this week that I really enjoyed. Here's the recipe: http://brokeassgourmet.com/articles/black-bean-burgers-with-sriracha-aioli
Next time, I'd have more things to dress it up, like avacado, or lettuce and tomato. I also have to serve it with more. I didn't think I'd have time to make them on Thursday and then I did, so we only had chips with it and it wasn't enough. Maybe potatoes and a veg, or pasta salad and salad. But they were great!
What are my weekend plans?
I went out to dinner last night with my sister and a friend and I went to bed around midnight, which of course I regret because A was up at 4:30. 4:30! Tonight Mike and I are going out to dinner, we were supposed to go play cards but it got canceled because our friend who was hosting has a sick kid. I am going to Mass tonight and Mike tomorrow.
What are my prayer intentions for the day?
A friend of mine's ex-husband died very suddenly this week, so I am thinking of her. I have another friend who is having a baby soon, her first and I'm praying for her and her family. I started in a little prayer group this week and I'm praying for the women I met there and their families. As always, my little kids.
What can my children do instead of watching T.V?
We are playing outside, which SURELY must be the last chance. Also I am packing up the downstairs, and they are playing htere.
What have I done for my marriage this week?
We had a rough morning on Wednesday and Mike had plans to go out right after work, and I tried to keep everything going well so that I wouldn't sound desperate when I said "have fun, we're fine!". I wanted to really be fine and it worked.
What am I reading?
I'm still reading Half a Life and I'm doing some reading for this prayer group I'm in.
What’s challenging me lately?
I'm so tired. It's hard to not get depressed when you are so tired and people are so unhappy around you.
Something that made me think?
Hmmm. Because we were talking about God and marriage this week, I thought about my marriage a lot. I also think, often, what would I do without God? What would I do if I didn't have faith in something? I would like to be more appreciative of my life and my faith and stop acting like I don't believe what I believe.
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Thoughts for Thursday
My sister told me about this, it's from a blog that we both read called buildingcathedrals.com. Well, it's called Building Cathedrals, but that above is the address. You know what I mean. I just want to give credit where credit is due. I like the idea of 'checking in' weekly, but Lord only knows if I'll be able to do it. I'll give it a whirl:
What am I cooking?
Today I baked a cake for Mike's birthday, just from a box, because he likes a yellow cake and what is the point, I figure, of making a yellow cake from scratch when the people at Betty Crocker have already put it all together for me? I'm not fond of icing from a can, though, so I made some and WOW is it good. I made a double batch, the first batch didn't seem like enough. He likes yellow cake with chocolate icing and pecans, so as soon as everything cools, I'll ice it and put the pecans on. I'm happy with it all, looks-wise, so far, and that's half the battle, for me. We're having Cinnamon Carbonara today for dinner, Mike's mom and her husband and his sister and her girlfriend are coming over for dinner. His birthday is tomorrow, his last one in this house! I remember when he was only 36. :)
What are my weekend plans?
See? I should have done this on Thursday, but I'll backtrack. Friday night we had eggs for dinner and went to see a show called The Belle of Amherst, about Emily Dickinson. It was a one woman show and although I thought it was a SKOSHE long for a one woman show, overall I loved it. I thought the actress was wonderful, it was nice to see a play with Mike, which I haven't done for a long time, and the tickets were free! My sister babysat, which was also nice. Yesterday we went to the park, I went to Mass and then the grocery store. Today we're having birthday dinner.
What are my prayer intentions for the day?
I always pray for my children, especially Anthony, that his mind can be eased a little bit, today. I pray that he can get his sensory system in order and feel good and happy. I have a new friend on Facebook that I made, and her son just got diagnosed with autism, so I am praying for him and for her family, too. I always think of my cousin Sean around this time of year, tomorrow was his birthday. He died when he was 21 and I think he would have been 44 tomorrow.
What can my children do instead of watching T.V?
Play outside, today and tomorrow. It's going to warm up. They can also 'help' me with packing. Hopefully they can take a nice restorative nap today, as they were up early, because of the time change.
What have I done for my marriage this week?
I got up this morning with the girls! I want to be more mindful of not taking advantage of Mike and the fact that he always, always gets up with them. Now that I am sleeping more regularly, there's no reason I can't get up too.
What am I reading?
I'm finishing a novel called One Day, and I'm moving back to a memoir of sorts, it's called Half a Life.
What’s challenging me lately?
I wish I could be better on my diet. I wish I could be committed to exercising and eating better. I wish I could lighten up.
Something that made me think?
Meeting my new FB friend made me think about Anthony and when we got his diagnosis and how far we have come. I remembered trying to practice saying "Anthony has autism", like, in the car before I got places, so that I wouldn't cry when I said it. It rarely worked but I like to feel prepared. Anyways, it's better now, so I hope I can remember that no matter how bad it feels at the time, it always does get better. So far, anyway.
What am I cooking?
Today I baked a cake for Mike's birthday, just from a box, because he likes a yellow cake and what is the point, I figure, of making a yellow cake from scratch when the people at Betty Crocker have already put it all together for me? I'm not fond of icing from a can, though, so I made some and WOW is it good. I made a double batch, the first batch didn't seem like enough. He likes yellow cake with chocolate icing and pecans, so as soon as everything cools, I'll ice it and put the pecans on. I'm happy with it all, looks-wise, so far, and that's half the battle, for me. We're having Cinnamon Carbonara today for dinner, Mike's mom and her husband and his sister and her girlfriend are coming over for dinner. His birthday is tomorrow, his last one in this house! I remember when he was only 36. :)
What are my weekend plans?
See? I should have done this on Thursday, but I'll backtrack. Friday night we had eggs for dinner and went to see a show called The Belle of Amherst, about Emily Dickinson. It was a one woman show and although I thought it was a SKOSHE long for a one woman show, overall I loved it. I thought the actress was wonderful, it was nice to see a play with Mike, which I haven't done for a long time, and the tickets were free! My sister babysat, which was also nice. Yesterday we went to the park, I went to Mass and then the grocery store. Today we're having birthday dinner.
What are my prayer intentions for the day?
I always pray for my children, especially Anthony, that his mind can be eased a little bit, today. I pray that he can get his sensory system in order and feel good and happy. I have a new friend on Facebook that I made, and her son just got diagnosed with autism, so I am praying for him and for her family, too. I always think of my cousin Sean around this time of year, tomorrow was his birthday. He died when he was 21 and I think he would have been 44 tomorrow.
What can my children do instead of watching T.V?
Play outside, today and tomorrow. It's going to warm up. They can also 'help' me with packing. Hopefully they can take a nice restorative nap today, as they were up early, because of the time change.
What have I done for my marriage this week?
I got up this morning with the girls! I want to be more mindful of not taking advantage of Mike and the fact that he always, always gets up with them. Now that I am sleeping more regularly, there's no reason I can't get up too.
What am I reading?
I'm finishing a novel called One Day, and I'm moving back to a memoir of sorts, it's called Half a Life.
What’s challenging me lately?
I wish I could be better on my diet. I wish I could be committed to exercising and eating better. I wish I could lighten up.
Something that made me think?
Meeting my new FB friend made me think about Anthony and when we got his diagnosis and how far we have come. I remembered trying to practice saying "Anthony has autism", like, in the car before I got places, so that I wouldn't cry when I said it. It rarely worked but I like to feel prepared. Anyways, it's better now, so I hope I can remember that no matter how bad it feels at the time, it always does get better. So far, anyway.
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Confession and Vocation
This is not a confession, it's about Confession, aka Penance, or the more obnoxious (to me) Reconciliation. Ugh. I like Confession and I think penance is what you get when you go.
The other day on my board, someone mentioned their cousin was making her first Penance and another person asked what that was. I said it was when you make your first Confession and someone ELSE clarified that Confession meant confessing your sins to a Priest. I thought that was a bit much - I think people generally know what Confession is, since people on tv and in movies are CONSTANTLY going to Confession, especially if they are not Catholic. Oh does that GRATE on my NERVES.
There is this baseball player who was an Oakland prospect who is leaving baseball to become a priest. I was listening to Dan Patrick on ESPN Radio, he was interviewing the guy and he asked him something about confession, I think swearing, maybe? Does he confess swearing? And the guy answered, laughing "every week". Dan Patrick went on to say that he remembered confession! And he used to count how many times he disobeyed his parents! Ho ho ho, it really seemed to stir up some memories for Dan. He didn't seem to be *not* Catholic anymore, I truly think that he thinks that Confession is for little kids and maybe people who are becoming Priests?
He's wrong. You're supposed to go to Confession once a year, a rule of the Church, and really you should go more often that that, really whenever you are aware of mortal sin. As my priest says, the Pope goes to Confession once a week and if HE can think of things to confess, I suppose we all can.
We're lucky that we have Confession available to us at our church all the time. I didn't go for a LONG time, like more than 20 years, but once Mike went through RCIA and before I got married, I went back and have been going regularly ever since. My sister goes now, too, which I think is lucky. I feel like we gained a lot by bringing Mike into the church, I feel like we got brought in a little bit more.
On vocations - Oprah had nuns on her show yesterday and they were so nice and sweet. They seemed so, so sure of their vocation and of course they weren't going to go on Oprah and cry about "I've made a terrible mistake" but I was jealous of them and their conviction. I do feel that I have been called to be a married person and I know that I have these kids and must be called to be their mother, but man. I am so, so bad at it. I was wishing I could just go to that damned cloister and play field hockey with those nuns and not have to be anyone's mother yesterday. I wish I felt more convinced of my vocation. Seven years those nuns have to go before they take their final vows! Seven! I am not even seven years into motherhood and already I feel like a failure most of the time, I wish I had ... what? Thought about it more? Prayed about it more? Ugh I don't know. They were nice, those nuns, is all. They seemed happy.
The other day on my board, someone mentioned their cousin was making her first Penance and another person asked what that was. I said it was when you make your first Confession and someone ELSE clarified that Confession meant confessing your sins to a Priest. I thought that was a bit much - I think people generally know what Confession is, since people on tv and in movies are CONSTANTLY going to Confession, especially if they are not Catholic. Oh does that GRATE on my NERVES.
There is this baseball player who was an Oakland prospect who is leaving baseball to become a priest. I was listening to Dan Patrick on ESPN Radio, he was interviewing the guy and he asked him something about confession, I think swearing, maybe? Does he confess swearing? And the guy answered, laughing "every week". Dan Patrick went on to say that he remembered confession! And he used to count how many times he disobeyed his parents! Ho ho ho, it really seemed to stir up some memories for Dan. He didn't seem to be *not* Catholic anymore, I truly think that he thinks that Confession is for little kids and maybe people who are becoming Priests?
He's wrong. You're supposed to go to Confession once a year, a rule of the Church, and really you should go more often that that, really whenever you are aware of mortal sin. As my priest says, the Pope goes to Confession once a week and if HE can think of things to confess, I suppose we all can.
We're lucky that we have Confession available to us at our church all the time. I didn't go for a LONG time, like more than 20 years, but once Mike went through RCIA and before I got married, I went back and have been going regularly ever since. My sister goes now, too, which I think is lucky. I feel like we gained a lot by bringing Mike into the church, I feel like we got brought in a little bit more.
On vocations - Oprah had nuns on her show yesterday and they were so nice and sweet. They seemed so, so sure of their vocation and of course they weren't going to go on Oprah and cry about "I've made a terrible mistake" but I was jealous of them and their conviction. I do feel that I have been called to be a married person and I know that I have these kids and must be called to be their mother, but man. I am so, so bad at it. I was wishing I could just go to that damned cloister and play field hockey with those nuns and not have to be anyone's mother yesterday. I wish I felt more convinced of my vocation. Seven years those nuns have to go before they take their final vows! Seven! I am not even seven years into motherhood and already I feel like a failure most of the time, I wish I had ... what? Thought about it more? Prayed about it more? Ugh I don't know. They were nice, those nuns, is all. They seemed happy.
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